Summer Summer Time!!

I get out in 3 days!  I use to hate people that would post stuff like that on Facebook because it made me super jealous.  Now, I'm one of them!  Ha! 

This summer I have 2 trips planned:  one to Destin, FL in a couple of weeks and then one to see a friend in WY in July.  I have been asked a bit about seeing said friend since she left S'port in less than ideal circumstances.  I was hurt, we talked and I'm over it.  End of story.  I just think why throw away a friendship over a situation that essentially had nothing to do with me?  Life is too short and let's face it: I don't have many friends LOL!

Two trips include flying with an almost 2 y/o two times!  I am trying to prepare and read tips about the best way to go about this but I am sure in the end it will be an epic fail and I will wish I was never born.  My child adorable as she is is quite difficult.  I am keeping my fingers crossed though! 

I am going to paint our guest bedroom this summer.  I now hate the awful mustard, golden color I thought would be nice.  Just one of the joys of being indecisive and A.D.D.!

Anna is going to daycare just part-time this summer and I am looking forward to spending more time with her. 

The main thing I hope to accomplish this summer is just to have time for a little TLC for myself.   I put everyone ahead of me.  I only have myself to blame.  I am so busy trying to make everyone else happy that I stretch myself too thin sometimes and don't take care of me.  So this summer I am going to do some things I have been wanting to do.  I am excited to take classes at the wellness center (yoga, pilates, zumba) that are offered during my normal working hours and I have thus been unable to attend.  I have ordered a couple of cookbooks and am looking forward to cooking.  I find cooking therapeutic but being a full-time working mother has left little time for that.

I had the wonderful opportunity to catch up with some old friends this past weekend.  I had 4 best friends in high school.  We were known as the Fab Five.  Why?  Heck if I know who gave us the nickname.  Yes, there was a lot of bickering and fighting but overall we got along good.  I missed that.  I missed being with people who really know you and like you anyway.  :)  We talked about taking a girls trip sometime this summer so I am really hoping that happens! 

Here is a list of my summer must-haves:
1.  Sunblock - yes a tan is nice but skin cancer and advanced aging. . . not so much.
2.  Sundresses & skirts - I don't wear short so this is my cool alternative that can be
     dressed up or down.
3.  Flip flops
4.  Cute hats
5.  Fruity drinks - bring on the Pina coladas!
6.  Snow cones - Tim's Southern Snow, the guy is a weirdo but the snow cones are the
     best in S'port!  Also where else can you pick up an owner's manual for a 1993 Jeep
     and some VHS's?
7.  Pedi's!!!
8.  A Pool - because in Louisiana it is too hot to be outside and not in one!
9.  BBQ's - good friends + good food = a great summer
10. Air conditioning.  :)

I hope everyone has a wonderful and safe summer!

Quotations

Anyone who really knows me well knows that I love quotations.  I collect them.  A perfect gift for me is a book of quotations.  It doesn't have to be said by someone famous, it can be an ad, something spray painted on a side of a building; it just has to speak to me and resonnate.  Some of my favorite quoations are from Dr. Seuss.  Here are a few:

"A person's a person no matter how small."
"Why fit in when you were born to stand out?"
"Be who you are, and say what you feel, because those that mind don't matter and those that matter don't mind."

The last quotation pretty much sums up me in a nutshell.  I say what I feel and I am brutally honest.  I don't play games and I don't have time for b.s.  That is just how I am.  Some people love me for this, some. . . . .not so much.  When I am angry at someone, they know it.  I don't pretend to like someone if I truly do not like them.  I am not passive aggressive, I'm just aggressive I guess.  :)  I just find this is better in life:  just be who you are and be honest.  The important people in my life I care about their opinion of me (my husband, daughter, mother) but everyone else?  Eh, not so much.  If someone asks me a question, I give them an answer.  I don't sugar coat things.  Sometimes this causes people's feelings to get hurt and for that I am sorry but seriously don't ask if you don't want to know. 

I found another quotation today that applies to me also, "Transpersonal boundaries-being so deeply rooted in your essence and your inner honesty that falsehood is not an option".  I wish more people had transpersonal boundaries or any boundaries at all for the matter but that is a whole other blog.  I find that when you do not have boundaries or stay true to boundaries, you run into trouble.  Falsehood is not an option for me.  Like the good Southern saying: "Don't piss on my leg and tell me it's raining".  I find too many people just want to sweep things under a rug or act like there isn't a huge elephant in the room rather than dealing with the issue.  I don't get this at all.  In the end you are just causing more grief and trouble than necessary.  I am just the person that would rather deal with the issue, talk it out and then move on. 

Decisions

All of our decisions lead to something.  It can change the path we are currently on to go in a new direction.  I am not one that does well with big decisions.  I over analyze and think through every scenario before making a decision.  I then second guess myself after the decision has already been made.  I'm a perfectionist and it creates a huge dilemma when dealing with decisions.

I have many decisions that I have to make soon and I'm stuck on what to do.  One is my job.  I absolutely love my job but I am not loving the b.s. that goes along with it.  I am currently the social worker over an elementary school-based health center but I have been asked that due to budget cuts to also work at the high school school-based health center.  Increase in pay for additional work??? Nope, budget cuts!  I enjoy the time off and the work that I do but do I really want to work more for the same if not potentially less money??  Kind of a crappy deal if you ask me!  Social work is a calling but I still have bills to pay!  The good news is that I have all summer to decide what I am going to do.  Still sucks though.  :(

UGH!!!