Work In Progress

Can I get a WOOO HOOO??!  I finished my first of many 12 week sessions with Fitness Xcellence.  I have lost 11 lbs. and I can definitely tell I have lost some inches mainly in my legs!  These classes have helped me sooo much!  I have never loved my body, I developed early (10y/o) and always felt so insecure in my own skin.  I have constantly compared myself to others and always feel like I'm fat.  After having Anna I have never felt so horrible about my physical self.  Things have shifted, I have more stretch marks and just feel dumpy and old.  I am in awe of my body from the whole amazing process of pregnancy and delivery but it seems overshadowed by the negative transformations that have occurred.

I had a formal event to attend back in December, I tried on all the dresses I own and nothing fit.  I went shopping and nothing fit.  Finally after a day spent in tears, I found a dress that I didn't really like but it was on sale and it was the only thing I found that fit.  My New Year's Resolution was to take better care of myself physically and mentally.  I joined Fitness Excellence and have found so much support.  I love the ladies I am class with and Blake, the trainer always cracks me up with remarks like "This is work out, not BUNKO!"  I had an event last weekend and again tried on all the dresses I own.  There is a particular dress that is my absolute favorite, it has the ability to just make me feel pretty.  I tried this dress on and IT FIT!! I haven't been able to wear this dress in 4 years and now it fits!!  This is just one example of how I am feeling better about myself.

I know I will never be a size 0 or look like a supermodel but I know that I can get to where I am healthy and happy with my body.  I am going to take the 12 week session classes for probably the next year.  I do not have a set weight goal or size I am trying to achieve.  I am just trying to be the "best me" I can be.  I want a healthy lifestyle for me and my family.  I am glad Dave is taking the classes to because we support and compete(I hate losing) with each other.  I told Blake a couple of weeks ago about my "dress" story and he said, "We're just scratching the surface".  Yep, I am a work in progress and it feels great!