Randomness

My A.D.D. is kicking in full gear this morning, I probably need to be medicated for it but oh well!  Hence, the blog title is "Randomness", just my random A.D.D. musings!  Hope you are able to follow along.  :)

First off this morning I was thinking about invites.  I am planning Anna's first birthday party(yes, I love planning parties) and I am thinking about what size of party to have.  I do not want huge but yet I get to the case "Well, if I invite that person then I must invite that person" and so on and so on.  I get really tired of this.  Why can't I just invite who I want anymore?!  I thought about doing only family but then Anna has baby friends(bff of course right now is Cecilia) and I don't want to leave them out but doing so opens up the door.  People get their feelings hurt when they are not included in EVERYTHING!  This is stupid.  I'm sorry but I'm not responsible for your feelings.  I don't get invited to a lot of things but I don't whine about it.  Some people feel like they are somehow entitled to be invited to everything anyone does and guess what, they aren't.  I should be free to invite who I want without having to include those I don't want to.  Case in point, this past year for my birthday.  I just wanted a quiet intimate dinner witha few friends.  I did not want spend my birthday with everyone I know.  Somehow asking this was somehow wrong of me and people got mad that they were not invited.  IT WAS MY FRIGGIN BIRTHDAY!  Another example was right after Anna was born Dave and I just invited another couple over to the house to watch the LSU game.  Anna was colic and we could not have a  big rowdy crowd and her bedroom backs up to the den but others got their feelings hurt and were mad because we didn't invite them over.  CRAZY!  I'm sorry but my child is more important than other people's feelings, especially when those people are being selfish.  I feel like I shouldn't have to be guilted when I don't want to include everyone I know to every single thing I do.  So to summarize my thoughts this morning:  People need to get over themselves in feeling like they have the right to be invited to every single thing.  If I do not want to include everyone I know, that should be ok.  It isn't to be mean, it is to keep things simple and small.  Needless to say that if you don't get an invite to Anna's birthday party and get mad. .  . well, get over it and if you don't then call me not my husband!

The next of my A.D.D. thoughts this morning kind of tie into the previous.  You can see how my mind works.  There is a saying "Good fences make good neighbors".  This makes me think of boundaries and what is appropriate.  You must have boundaries in your life.  There are times I have to set boundaries with family, work and friends.  Some people do not understand the concept of appropriate boundaries and in this case the boundaries aren't clear and become enmeshed.  I guess because boundaries are a social work/therapy concept I am very aware of my boundaries with others.  Because some people do not have appropriate boundaries they do not have appropriate relationships with people.  Example:  a single male does not stay at a married female's house when the spouse is not home.  Even though the male and female are just friends and it may be innocent, it isn't appropriate.  It is a boundary that is enmeshed.  Some people are the epitomy of the saying "You give them an inch, they take a foot".  These people do not have boundaries so you must be the one to set them.  They tend to not like it but oh well.

 Life is changing and it is exciting.  Anna grows everyday and continues to amaze me.  She was giggling so much yesterday that it made me giggle.  She is so sweet and happy.  Makes me feel like I'm not screwing up too much as a mom!  I have never been happier in my life.  I have a wonderful loving husband and a beautiful, happy and healthy baby girl.  I don't mean to sound like I am bragging, I just wonder sometimes how I got so lucky!  God has really blessed me and I thank him for it everyday!

I am still working out  and boy has Blake been kicking my butt.  Last night's work out was brutal!  I feel like I am going to die during the work out but feel so good about myself afterwards.  I am struggling on getting my cardio on the days not working out.  Just seems like there are not enough hours in the day to do everything I need to do. 

I am contemplating something I swore I would never do and that sucks!  I hate being wrong!  I'm not ready to say yet what it is because I am still on the fence about it.  Boy is Dave going to make fun of me if I do decide that I am going to do it because I have made fun of it for years.  Stay posted.